.i'll stare at the sky. just looking for a star.

Mon, 17 May 2004 04:52:17 GMT

soo. i think i saw the light. i dont know if it was because i had a really bad hangover and i was in a bad mood. but i dont think i like him anymore. yay for me.

love.

p.s. this weekend was bomb.
p.s.s. i love my best friend.

Mon, 10 May 2004 03:13:08 GMT

one word about my weekend:

eventful

that is all.

love.

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 03:48:43 GMT

"and if this darkness came from light
then light can come from darkness i guess"

love.

Sun, 04 Apr 2004 21:29:18 GMT

who am i???
-i am a notre dame varsity cheerleader, who is turning 16 in 2 days, and who should be getting her lisence in 4 days. OOO and who is not the whipped anymore. :)

love.

digital camera.

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 00:51:30 GMT

We went to see the minis! :)

Kim and I went inside to see what it would be like in the future...ha!

Then Subway for lunch. Back at home:

And as always, Kim pleaded for an afternoon nap. Instead we watched How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days

Love.

a poem my good friend miri found and thought of me.

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 06:47:08 GMT

Bottled up inside
Are the words I never said,
The feelings that I hide,
The lines you never read.

You can see it in my eyes,
Read it on my face:
Trapped inside are lies
Of the past I can't replace

With memories that linger-
Won't seem to go away.
Why can't I be happier?
Today's a brand-new day.

Yesterdays are over,
Even though the hurting's not.
Nothing lasts forever,
I must cherish what I've got.

Don't take my love for granted,
For soon it will be gone-
All you ever wanted
Of the love you thought you'd won.

The hurt I'm feeling now
Won't disappear overnight,
But someday, somehow,
Everything will turn out all right,

No more wishing for the past.
It wasn't meant to be.
It didn't seem to last,
So I have to set him free.

love.

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 19:45:48 GMT

its nice to have someone call you beautiful again.
maybe it makes up for the trash feeling i get from someone else.

love.

copycat

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 22:24:00 GMT

so im having a bad day. too bad it wont be over until 9:00 tonight. great.

ive been really bothered by one person for a little but havent said anything to them. i dont know why it bothers me so much when she copies me but damn. its just gotten to be such an annoying thing. if you know me well enough you know i hate it when people copy things that i love. as childish as that sounds. ive never grown out of it. (miri you know my flaw ;)anyways, if a guy like curtis notices, it has to be obvious. ugh. sorry if you read this and i dont mean it to be mean but can you please get your own shit and try not to copy all of mine. i said that nicely, really.

k well im in english now and should be researching or whatnot, so that is all.

love.

theres still a little bit of your taste, in my mouth.

Mon, 09 Feb 2004 04:43:06 GMT

i want a valentine.

its sad to think that love taught me to cry.

love.

i hate it when your not around
and the fact that you didnt call
but most of all i hate the way i dont hate you not even a little bit not even alot not even at all.(thanks chantel)

so me and jess had a night full of laughter this weekend:

Tue, 03 Feb 2004 04:55:32 GMT

i got my hair done :)

i really dislike my mom. that is all.

love.©

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 01:39:24 GMT

these are a ~~couple~~ lot of pictures from summertime.

refugio camping...

where all the kids slept at refugio.

upclose. ya thats me in a ball. ha.

i like to be ontop. what can i say.

last day of school...

girls.

me and hives.

me and wes.

cheer camp...

our first day.

me and misa!

braiding hair. lol

surf camp...

the bunch.

the kitchen. ha.

me alison and tiffany.

wow i miss summer.

heres another for you.

skinny dipping!

Sat, 24 Jan 2004 06:32:50 GMT

i hate parents. its okay when they offend u but u when u offend them all hell breaks loose. i dont understand why because they have saggy asses & face wrinkles theyre so much better than us. & because theyre adults/parents, what they say goes. i fucking hate it. i couldnt sleep over jessikas tonight cuz i offended my mom by yawning loudly & then gave her too much attitude. i fucking hate my parents sometimes, a lot.

the worst part about love or life for that matter
is loving someone and not being loved back.
and then the tables turn and you are being loved and are not able or willing to love back.
and then you realize that you wish you could have loved when you were being loved.

(stolen from chantel's away message(thanks)) that makes me cry everytime i read it...ugh.

i wish my life was fun. ive realized how much i always do absolutely nothing. when i get my lisence itll be much better. hopefully.

But it's calm under the waves, in the blue of my oblivion

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 23:21:32 GMT

he stabs me in the heart,
with his knife of jealousy.
he knows my longnings for him,
yet he continues the pain.
maybe on purpous.
when can i stand on my own 2 feet again.

my life is shattered,
and it keeps piecing.
till maybe itll be no more.
when can i stand on my own 2 feet again?

god it hurts so bad,
when i see him,
when i see him with another girl,
when i see him with my best friend.
when can i stand on my own 2 feet again?

if he saw me dying on the sidewalk,
would he stop?
would he care?
when i hurt hes not concerned.
why should i hurt when he doesnt give a fuck?
the question i ask myself everyday.

can i not care?
can i walk passed him with no concern?
then maybe i can stand on my own 2 feet again.

-me

love.

atleast my friends care that i cried friday.

sorry if u see this.

"Its round and has a diameter of about...6 inches!" -jess

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 07:31:54 GMT

Jess baked me this yummy cake!

mmmm...mmm...grrreaat!

comment please.
Love.
me.

Tue, 23 Dec 2003 04:17:04 GMT

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY STEPHANI!

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hope u have a wonderful day sorry i couldnt go to the movies with.

love.

Wed, 10 Dec 2003 05:46:09 GMT

i had a pretty good day i must say. pretty good in comparison to all my other days i mean. nothing special. just a good attitude i guess. im super excited for this weekend. nothing really exciting is gonna happen but atleast ill semi-ly(yes i made that word up) have a weekend. lets see what plans i have:

friday:
.movies with miri, jessika, michael
.buying gifts aswell

saturday:
.final CIF football game
.heading over to miris with jess for a full night of fun.
.sleeping there

sunday:
.cheer practice in the morning
.possibly LACMA with paul and jess.

yay. ok im done. i have to go do homework now.

love.

Mon, 08 Dec 2003 03:41:50 GMT

just because the day wasnt bad enough, i had to go run into a pole with my dads car. and not to mention be yelled at and called stupid. its just a little dent and scratch but i can never drive it again. im not sure what to do with myself these days. im not sure whats wrong with me. god i hate myself sometimes.

...

newly wed.

Fri, 28 Nov 2003 00:48:49 GMT

so this is my new lj. im not sure about it yet. it seems a little too hard to switch everything over but w.e. add me will ya? ill write later after i fix all the settings and overrides.

love.

FRIENDS ONLY! SORRY